I ask you to read this post along with the previous post, “Otis Redding Revisited.”
Dear Friends,
If you doubt the power of the spoken word, then I invite you to read Crystal’s story.
Crystal is a friend who’s lived a healer’s life. Healers usually have dramatic life stories, and healers use the gifts that come with their pain to help others. Crystal has worked hard to mine the gifts that were nearly obscured by the darkness, and she freely shares her gifts with her friends and clients.
After Crystal survived an abusive relationship that nearly killed her, she became extraordinarily sensitive. The extreme sensitivity has helped her in her work. She’s a skilled facilitator of energy work; a specialty is discerning stillborn or miscarried babies that still are present energetically in her client’s wombs years later. She’s also a gifted psychic. Crystal feels that many psychics develop their gifts from necessity; it’s useful to stay one step ahead of one’s abuser, and being psychic gives many battered children and adults a feeling of safety. Crystal credits this relationship as being pivotal in her spiritual development; she feels the two of them had a contract to activate her gifts.
Crystal is an adult Crystal being. The Crystal children are increasing in number, but there are also many adults who carry Crystal energy. Crystals are sensitive to the extreme, and they are tremendous amplifiers for whatever energy is around. If you’ve ever built a Crystal set radio, you’ve learned firsthand how powerfully they can transmit sound. Crystal people are powerful transmitters for whatever frequency is around them. They’re normally loving, gentle souls, but if they’re faced with a vibration that isn’t loving, they often pick up that new vibration, especially if they’re among the most sensitive of the Crystals, and broadcast it as if it were their own.
Crystal is a healer, and Crystal is full of love. People who want healing, either consciously or unconsciously, and people who crave love find her. But many of the men Crystal has met, no matter how much they might crave love, have strong reactions to her that unconsciously leads them to say and do hurtful things. Perhaps they came from dysfunctional families, perhaps they have been often disappointed in love….everyone has a story, but the common thread is a fear of love. People often are threatened by the unfamiliar, even if it’s something they dearly want, and many of the men Crystal has met have desired her love while they lashed out at her for being loving. They never meant to damage her, their intention was to protect themselves, but fear can cause people to feel the need to defend themselves in ways that might temporarily hurt some people but can cause severe damage to others with extreme sensitivity. Crystal has given me permission to share her story of how words of fear others have spoken to her have cost her her health.
She had a relationship with a man who had lived a healer’s life. He’d been abused, abandoned, used, and disrespected. He’d never been successful in love, and he didn’t believe he’d ever be successful in love. He initially treated Crystal with love and caring, but his fear of love eventually caused him to treat Crystal as a sexual plaything instead of as someone he cherished. Crystal didn’t understand how he could suddenly treat her as a receptacle. It felt like a cruel joke. She still loved him, and she told him after a weekend together, “Every time I see you, I love you more.” She said the words from her heart, as a gift of love. And her partner told her, “If you keep saying things like that to me, I won’t want to see you ever again.” She felt she’d been stabbed in the heart. Two weeks later, she had a large lump in her left breast, close to her heart. She wasn’t prone to lumps, so she felt his words and the sudden lump in her breast were connected. She cut off contact with him, and she used a number of natural therapies to eventually clear the lump. She told him about the lump after it was gone; he understood the emotional causes for illness, and he understood how it developed. He didn’t apologize, but he now treated her more gently.
When she ended their romantic involvement, she did it in the most loving way she could find. He was hurt at being let go, even though he acknowledged that she deserved to be with someone who would be available for a committed relationship. Instead of owning his feelings of disappointment and fear of loss, he said, “Weren’t you using me as I was using you?” She’d loved him with an enormous love. She’d never used him. She didn’t grow a new lump. She developed pneumonia; issues of the lungs are often seen as a grieving reaction. And she was aware that she was grieving her broken trust that he would hold her heart with respect and care. She understands the lifetime of emotional damage that led him to say the things he said to her. Love still connects their hearts today in their infrequent conversations. They support each other if either needs support. She accepts that it’s more beneficial to them both to keep an occasional friendship instead of doing a relationship, and she honors the good that still exists in their connection.
She met her next love several years later. He’d also led a healer’s life. He was a good man who worked to make a difference in the world, but he’d endured tremendous damage as a child. Crystal and this man had a strong connection, so strong that they became engaged to be married. That strong connection terrified her partner. He said and did things to push her away, and he placed other people between the two of them. After a long separation, they reunited. He’d told her he’d realized that he treasured their ongoing connection, that it was one of the bright spots in his life. She’d prayed to be reunited with him, and she was so grateful her prayers had been answered. He’d made it known that he wanted to be with her well into the future, not just for a reunion. But when they saw each other, he went back into fear. Instead of being honest with her about his fear, instead of reaching out for her support, instead of trusting that she was his friend who truly wanted what was best for him, he allowed his fear to override his love. He told her, “I don’t want to hurt you, but I don’t feel love or passion or commitment for you, and if we were to become sexual, I’d only be using your body.”
She didn’t show her shock or hurt at hearing his words, but she cried whenever she had time to herself. She decided to focus on being loving with him as an act of love, on complimenting him, on appreciating that her prayers had brought them back together for whatever the reason, on enjoying what they were doing, and on opening to receive love from the many people and animals they were meeting who wanted to give love to her. For the rest of their reunion, he pushed her away, he looked for reasons to reject her, and he didn’t treat her with love. He abruptly ended their visit at the airport, saying he was meeting someone else in twenty minutes.
Her right ear began to close soon after they parted and stayed closed for three months, she felt to stop her from hearing any more hurtful words, and her energy field had absorbed his continual judgments, distancing and verbal digs so well that her body began attacking itself. It started as a sudden upper respiratory infection that left her unable to breathe freely before developing into an autoimmune disorder. She’s healing herself by surrounding herself with friends who shower her with love, by taking vibrational medicines and having energy therapy treatments, by prayer, and by newly examining her life patterns. She still deeply loves this man and still wants only the best for him, but she’s loving herself by choosing to only be around those who consistently cherish her through their words, their actions, their decisions, and their thoughts.
Crystal may be unusually sensitive, but her story is universal. If you know the work of Dr. Masaru Emoto, you’ve heard how sending the energy of love or affixing written words of love to polluted water can create pristine, perfect water molecules, and how sending the energy of hate or affixing written words of hate to clear water can create distorted, dark water molecules.
Have you heard that our blood is 83% water? Is it any wonder that words can kill or heal, that we really can make each other sick or well just by choosing how we relate to others?
Angela’s story is about the power of love. Crystal’s story is about the power of fear.
Both are extraordinary forces, going far beyond the visible.
Love can transform. Love can create. Fear can distort. Fear can destroy.
Which vibration will you decide to send into the world?
Namaste, Earth Angels.
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